Vehement Vessels

is the title of my thesis body of work I created in conjunction to culminating my Bachelor’s studies at Maine College of Art & Design. Vehement Vessels combines multidisciplinary methods of making to explore the body as a vessel for harboring and releasing emotion, experience, and reaction.

Vehement Use of my Vessel

 

It is instinct to translate images in our brains across culture and language. My love for language and connecting metaphor to image enables me to find double entendres both visually and linguistically. It also enabled me to find alliterated titles for most of my pieces, as well as the body of the work. Vehement Vessels speaks well to the meaning of creating this family of artwork I created in the early 2022. To be vehement is to be of strong will and passion. The term vessel refers to containers, such as bottles and the body. The duality of the vessel and what makes it vehement is my muse for this series. This interdisciplinary approach to the body as a vessel combines identity, belonging, and behavior as the factors that determine what harboring and releasing one’s turbulence looks like. 

My personal relationship to family, ritual, substance, and identity fueled the work as well. Queerness and racial identity, is not the forefront of my content, but rather something that I find imbued in my work by virtue of its maker. Through color, content, and camo, I am synthesizing my identity in subdued manners that instead of making the work a conversation about it, it is just inherent. 

I regard the studio as a consecrated place for making. There is importance behind maintaining a space with respect for feelings and humanness to transcend. Vehement Vessels was a body of work centered in my need to create a consecrated space to process my bottled needs. My performances were conducted in a consecrated manner. Each artwork is imbued with my spirituality and sense of dignity in the face of needing to maintain composure when I am anything but composed. Our bodies can only handle so much information before reaching a threshold. Despite resilience and composure, constant endurance leaves us vulnerable and leaves us prone to inevitable overflow or explosion of emotion. I made this body of work for those who hold everything within themselves, and have trouble asking for help. 

Contemplate

I find ways to integrate the urban landscape within my work. Brick is an iconic architectural feature of many historic cities. New England cities in particular have brick both layered in buildings and sidewalks.

Contemplate is a brick wall installation composed of multiple plaster castings of my face. While following the modular composition of brick wall, the installation is more referential than physical. The faces hang individually on the wall and do not stack or use mortar. Each face has various treatments in texture and color. In making these, every face reflects specific moods, encompassing rage, sadness, joy, seasonal strife, and indifference. Many of these conditions coexist in the mind, so I seek to have their collective presence translate mindscape to landscape. In using an exact replica mold of my face, I am directly connecting my identity to a multi-layered component of the urban environment. 

The brick wall is a piece I feel is rich in connecting conceptual means of containment. In a personal sense, I do not quite adopt this wall into my defense mechanism, but I feel the connection comes from how others perceive my listening skills. At a young age, my mother at times would compare talking to me like “talking to a brick wall” in that I would be present but not truly listening. I still to this day tend to dissociate in the midst of conversation and interaction. The nature of putting up walls means the necessity of displaying indifference. By maintaining a neutral expression, one can be protected from others' perception of themselves. Whether they see your expression as positive or negative, they cannot be sure of the truth behind indifferent faces and what someone is genuinely thinking. The nineteen face mold holds a very stoic expression. With closed eyes and a resting lip, the treatment of each brick creates subtle shifts in areas where emotion is well translated; the line along the edge of lips indicating smirks or frowns, or compression along my brow line to show stress. A wall as a metaphor often used to describe composure, and emotional security. The expression of someone “putting a wall up” insinuates a repression of vulnerability. If a wall is strong and fortified, it takes a lot of energy to destroy a wall. The breaking of walls is synonymous with people lowering their emotional guard to express themself. Contemplate has an insinuated break in its installation to depict an aspect of releasing one’s emotional guard. 

Spit Duress

This 8 minute video is compiled documentation my performance “Spit Duress” where I methodically break bottles full of paint to create another image. My selective use of blue, pink, and purple acts as a referral to the body and identity. I am wearing my garment “Presence” and use it as an additional blank canvas. Both the wall and my garment are undertaking the brutality and endurance of dealing with a lot of paint all at once.

The end of the performance involves me casually drinking red liquid from another bottle and spitting it out onto the newly made work.

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